The Gift of Lucky

We’ve just said goodbye to someone who has been a part of our family for seven (or is it eight?) years. Lucky, our Cocker Spaniel, had been showing signs of rather constant discomfort, and a good number of symptoms of aging. He was still good-natured, gentle, and affectionate, but I definitely didn’t want to wait until his discomfort became pain. I won’t go into details. Those of us with older dogs know the drill.

So after six months of looking at other possible options, and watching him decrease in mobility and even in enjoyment of things he used to enjoy immensely, most of us were in agreement that it was time for Lucky to go to sleep.  All four sons chose to be present for the mobile vet’s visit.

About 15 minutes before she was due to arrive, they all took Lucky for one last walk (one of Lucky’s favorite things to do, even today). As they were walking home all together, I was struck with the poignant visual of my four sons, walking with Lucky, who was panting hugely and happily, and the parallel of the journey we all shared. Then, they fed him several of his favorite treats, which he had trouble chewing, but still clearly enjoyed immensely, as well as the attention and petting of our sons and me. It was clearly a precious time for Lucky. His loved ones were near, and he loved us, happily and unreservedly. Clearly, all was well in his simple, beautiful world.

The vet’s visit was hard. I was drawn into deep grief, mine and my sons’, with a pull that would leave us all gasping, in tears, with the pain of loss.

Afterwards, the guys dug the grave, and buried Lucky. They buried a leash (because he loved walks) and some of his favorite treats with him, and covered him top and bottom with towels. I watched as they fiercly shoveled the dirt up, then gently dropped the soil onto the grave. They collected unused rocks to build a cairn, and Tom chiseled Lucky’s name onto the top stone. My love for these young men was painful as I watched them deal with the death of a loved pet, and memorialize it in a way that reflected their love and knowledge of Lucky. Beyond words. Beyond blessed.

As we’ve shared these years of our journey with Lucky, we have learned from him what it looks like to love well, unconditionally and unstintingly. We have witnessed what hope looks like, as Lucky never tired of checking his food bowl one more time, to see if there were some new special treat in it. Lucky frequently offered his presence when one of us was troubled. He trusted us, clearly felt safe with us, and blessed us with all he had to offer: himself.

Goodbye, Lucky. You will be missed, and not forgotten. Thank you for offering all you are to us, and showing us what loving well, trusting unconditionally, and hoping always can look like in a life.  On behalf of my sons and I, we love you, and hope to see you again on the other side of the Rainbow Bridge.


(L)earning the Freedom to Be Authentic

Just found out that another web site published another of my submissions!  🙂  Hope you enjoy….

(L)earning the Freedom to Be Authentic.

When I See a Baby, I See an Invitation. Do You?


In thinking through what an amazing work God does when He creates a new human life, I was drawn to look back at the creation story. I was struck by the wording chosen to reflect God’s workings on the first five days. He essentially would say, “Let this new reality come into being…..” and it happened just as he said! When it came to creating the first man and woman, however, he had a significantly more intimate approach. As you read the verses below  from Genesis 2, I hope you’ll hear with me how He invests His very self in this work. Please also think with me how God carefully chose and constructed where the man, and later the woman, would live:

GENESIS 2:7-9, 21-22—>   7 Then the Lord God formed a man from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being. 8 Now the Lord God had planted a garden in the east, in Eden; and there he put the man he had formed. 9 The Lord God made all kinds of trees grow out of the ground—trees that were pleasing to the eye and good for food. In the middle of the garden were the tree of life and the tree of the knowledge of good and evil.

God’s intentional attention and focus are revealed in “formed,” and “breathed.”  The description of God’s preparation of Eden, again, shows that for this part of His creation, merely speaking the Word won’t reflect His heart rightly. Here, let’s see the personal “hands-on” work God chooses to use in creating the first woman:

21 So the Lord God caused the man to fall into a deep sleep; and while he was sleeping, he took one of the man’s ribs and then closed up the place with flesh. 22 Then the Lord God made a woman from the rib he had taken out of the man, and he brought her to the man.

Again, these verses reveal that creating the first man and woman merits more focused attention than simply speaking His powerful Word for this new reality.  In light of how important creating the first man and woman was to God, I have to believe that somehow God continues to be intimately involved in every aspect of a baby’s beginnings: who the parents are; just which chromosomes will come together to make this whole new life; timing of conception; and somehow tailoring the personality, the very BEING, of the baby to be a blessing from the beginning.

I find that His hand in the beginning of life is easiest for me to grasp in Psalm 139:13-14 (NIV).

13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

Part of why I connect so strongly to these verses is because I like to knit, I’m sure! I see parallels between what I do when I knit, and what God does when He knits: I usually make baby blankets as gifts for people or families I know at least a little bit. So I carefully select a pattern, what color (or colors) to use, the type of yarn (it has to be very easy-care!), the needle size, all of which make each blanket look a little different. In Psalm 127:3, God says that children are a gift from Him. So I think it is safe to believe that He very carefully constructs each new little life to be a gift. His “yarn basket” and array of tools and designs far surpasses anything we can conceive! God carefully designs both the visible, touchable contours of the baby, and also the qualities that can’t yet be measured: the personality; the soul; strengths and weaknesses; areas the little one will be gifted in; his eventual height; the ways this baby will bring out the strengths of his parent; and the ways the parents will be challenged to yield more to God because of their weaknesses the baby exposes. Everything about the baby will invite us to see God’s design, His goodness, His desire for our best.

While I’m knitting, I both have delight in the act of creating, and an anticipation of the recipient’s enjoyment. Well, maybe the moms’ enjoyment, since the baby can’t show me for some time whether he even likes the blanket…..As the design continues to unfold, stitch by stitch, row by row, I delight in having the skill to make this article grow as I planned, and occasionally, I get a pleasant surprise when the blanket turns out looking even better than I had hoped. Unlike me, God doesn’t ever have to rip out a row or two because He’s made a mistake…and unlike me, I suspect He is never surprised at how well His workmanship turns out….As I knit, it is easy for me to imagine God’s pleasure in His work of creating a new life, stitch by stitch, row by row, in developing every aspect of the baby’s being. I believe He anticipates the delight the parents and family will have in the little one.

Equally as important, I believe God anticipates the delight the little one will have in the gift of life. Watching young children play, run, explore, and talk over their discoveries, I see this almost tangible delight in the gifts of life, and of a wonderful world to explore. I believe God allows us to see this capacity for delight in children, as an invitation for us to continue to delight in Him, and in the work He is doing in us, in a similar way.

So, could it be, that with each new baby’s life, God invites us to look anew at our own lives, to see the gift that He gave us, when He created us? In the areas where we don’t or can’t see reason to delight, I believe He waits for us to let Him redeem these tender areas. He is more than ready to allow us to experience His great compassion, care, and love in the redemption process.

Because we have an Enemy who comes to kill, steal, and destroy, it should come as no surprise that we will be challenged to experience and model consistently the incredible richness of the gift of life in Christ. This Enemy works to hide from us God’s true character, and our true identities, as men and women deeply loved by a generous, compassionate God who intentionally and intimately created every aspect of who we are, to delight in HIm and enjoy His presence. Our delight in, love for, and obedience to God glorifies Him, and helps reveal His goodness in a powerful way.

I find it easier to delight wholeheartedly in someone when I feel this “someone” at least likes me a little bit.  If I don’t know God’s true heart towards me, glorifying Him is more of a work than a joy.  How can I be SURE God delights in us? I return frequently and repeatedly to Zephaniah 3:17 (NIV)—>

The Lord your God is with you,
the Mighty Warrior who saves.
He will take great delight in you;
he will quiet you with his love,
he will rejoice over you with singing.

I pray that we will all KNOW from the depths of our being the truth of these words!



Easter, Part 2b – the Resurrection

I know, I know, two posts in the same day????  I’ve had a little revelation of how God wants to bless us, to free us, to live the lives He created us to live, and it really got me excited!  🙂  

 Here goes….this little revelation all started while I was reading Stasi Eldredge’s book, “Becoming Myself,” while pondering how the resurrection is supposed to impact my life, personally.  Jesus talked frequently about the life He wants for His people.  Abundant life. No condemnation.  Set free by the truth.  Wearing His yoke, and light burden.  Newness of life.  Serving only one master (wholeheartedness?).  Equipped and able to love even our enemies well.  Forgiving without limit.  So what keeps His people from living this way?  I kept going back to “You will know the truth, and the truth will set you free (John 8:32).”  I wondered how well most people know the truth…about ourselves, and about God.   Then I came across four questions in Stasi’s book that transformed my thinking.  You see, I think most of us don’t truly know our own hearts, or God’s heart, very well.  These four questions helped me to see more clearly who I truly am and who God truly is.  Want to know the questions?  Wait for it….

What would I love to do, offer, experience, and create?

What do I want to be really good at?

What do I want to be known for?

What do I want with God?  What does He want with me?

I invite you to take some time and really ponder these questions.  Take off the expectations of others when you approach these questions.  Dare to dream big.  Dare to believe God gives you GOOD desires, and because He lives in you, that there is much that is good in your heart already.  Dare to be honest.  I was stunned by the beauty God has already put in my heart, that came out as I answered these questions.  And I was blown away by what He showed me He wants with and for me.  Listen to what He showed me about His desires for me, for us, really:

I want you to know My pleasure in you!

I want you to have a heart fully alive, trusting in Me.

I want you to know Me, not just about Me.

I want you to know yourself, and love yourself.  I think you’ll celebrate yourself more, when you see yourself as I do.

I want you to be free to enjoy abundant life.

I want you to walk in the joy of My presence.

I want you to give freely and without reservation what I show you to give.

I want you to be blessed as you use your gifts to bless others.

I want you to have the courage to be beautifully vulnerable.

I want you to enjoy wholehearted relationships.

I want you to love life, and invite others to more life.

I want you to delight in Me, because you KNOW what and Whom you’re delighting in.


So, do you see what I see?  I see that God’s heart towards us is only good, and that He wants our trust, love, obedience so that we can experience more of His goodness, more of His true character.  The result of our knowing Him rightly?  More joy.  More freedom. More goodness.  More LIFE!  Happy sigh….

How do these questions apply to resurrection?  I believe God is inviting us to die to that part of ourselves that has been misshapen and twisted by lies, so that we are freer to live from our true selves, in His power, and with His guiding help.  I believe this is at least part of the invitation Jesus gave us when He told us to take up our crosses to follow Him.  The work of confronting lies and fears to replace them with truth is incredibly hard.  Scary.  Heavy.  But oh, so worth it!

Let’s taste and see that the Lord is good, and celebrate the goodness He has already worked in us!


Easter, Part 2a – The Resurrection

Can any of us fully fathom the significance of Jesus’ resurrection?  He kept His promise that He would be raised from the dead.  He kept the most “impossible” of promises.  This means that all His other promises are completely trustworthy.  All of them.

He has gone ahead to prepare a forever home for us (John 14:1-3).

He sits at the right hand of God, and intercedes on our behalf (John 16:19).

He has fulfilled the Law (Matthew 5: 17-20).

His yoke is easy, and His burden light, when we cooperate with Him in our lives (Matt. 11:29).

He is the source of Living Water, as He told the woman at the well.  We need never thirst for Him again (John 4:13-14).

He gives us a way to be free of our old, sin-filled self:  to deny ourselves, take up our cross, and follow Him to LIFE (Matt. 16:24-26).  He came that we may have ABUNDANT life, to offset the Thief’s work of killing, stealing, and destroying (John 10:10).

He is coming again (Matt. 25:31).

He will never leave us (Matt. 28:20).

He tells us we need not fear man (Luke 12:4).


Easter…What Does it Really Mean? – Part 1, a Look at the Cross

I’ve been mulling over Easter for a few months now.  I truly believe I won’t completely comprehend what Jesus accomplished on my behalf on the Cross until Heaven.  That being said, I do want to acknowledge in my own limiting, limited words, some of what I know Jesus gave me (and all believers) as a result of His death on the Cross many, many years ago.

It is not an easy thing in our self-indulgent culture to rightly understand “sacrifice.”  But the Israelites lived it.  They saw and experienced, first-hand, the tangible cost of sin, in the form of sin offerings, the sacrifices of animals.  The Bible has at least one whole book detailing the sacrifices they were expected to make, in order to please the God they served (Leviticus, anyone?).  As far back as the Garden of Eden, sin was covered over by blood (remember the animal skins God gave Adam and Eve to replace the leaves they covered themselves with?).  When Jesus shed His blood on the Cross, it began a whole new era in how God invites mankind to relate to Him.  Rather than ever needing to shed innocent blood to atone for my sin, He invites me to receive the work of Jesus on the Cross.  

Even more amazing to me is knowing that in addition to allowing His Son’s sacrifice to atone for all my sins, God generously chooses to see me with the righteousness and holiness of Jesus Himself, once I acknowledged my need for a Savior, and invited Jesus into my life.  He gives me the identity of being His child, just as Jesus became the firstborn of His children.  I am His beloved, His sheep, and nothing can change that (Romans 8:28-39).  This New Covenant is an amazing display of grace, indeed.

Another truly incredible display of grace Jesus won for me is the reality that I am welcome in God’s presence at any time.  I can truly “come boldly to the throne of grace” (Hebrews 4:16).  The significance of the torn curtain after Jesus’ death can’t be overstated.  Before Jesus’ death, a single priest, decided by lot, before Jesus, could only enter the Holy of Holies, the inner sanctum of God’s presence, once a year, and only after purification and cleansing rituals were observed.  He even had to tie a rope to his arm or leg, in case God smote him down while he served God in the inner sanctuary.  I have been challenged to grasp God’s holiness more truly as I piece together the way the Israelites related to God, per His instructions.  I believe that my appreciation for Jesus’ work on the Cross has only been deepened as I recognize the differences between the Old and New Covenants.

While on the Cross, Jesus had an amazing conversation with the criminal hanging near Him, recorded in Luke 23:39-43.   39 One of the criminals who hung there hurled insults at him: “Aren’t you the Messiah? Save yourself and us!”   

40 But the other criminal rebuked him. “Don’t you fear God,” he said, “since you are under the same sentence? 41 We are punished justly, for we are getting what our deeds deserve. But this man has done nothing wrong.”   42 Then he said, “Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom.”  

43 Jesus answered him, “Truly I tell you, today you will be with me in paradise.” NIV

My takeaway from this?  Salvation is not based on what I do.  Salvation is based on acknowledging 1) who Jesus is, and 2) my need for Him.  The criminal’s words reveal his understanding of these two things.  He didn’t have time to act on his newfound faith, and yet, Jesus essentially tells him he belongs in Jesus’ kingdom.  I’m not saying I think salvation means I can live my life as I want.  I am saying that my future is secure because of His faithfulness rather than mine.  My gratitude for what Jesus has done, and my desire to love Him well, mean that I desire to bring Him glory and delight in how I live this life, His gift to me.  More on this in a future post.

So, a summary of the personal impact of Jesus’ work on the Cross: 

1) Jesus took my sins fully on Himself, and paid the sacrifice-cost for me.  He died in my place, the death that I deserved to die for my sins.  Love too amazing for me to comprehend….

2) God chooses to look at those who seek Jesus as Saviour as being as righteous and love-worthy as Jesus Himself.  Breath-taking grace!  It will take my whole life for this truth to permeate my deepest being!

3) God welcomes me, through Jesus, into His Holy of Holies, His very presence, at any time, without need for formal cleansing and purification.  I am irrevocably a part of His family.  Happy, quiet, awed sigh here.

4)  My future after this life, like that of the criminal’s, is completely secure.  I don’t need to fear death.  His faithfulness blesses both blesses me in this life, and gives me assurance that after this life, it only gets better.


The End and the Beginning

I’m pretty excited!  I submitted a post to another web site, and it was accepted, and published today!  If you want to take a peek at what I submitted, here’s the link:

The End and the Beginning.

It’s a hard part of my story, so it’s not really “celebrating,” but it was a huge corner that I had to turn to get to where I am now.  I guess you could say there’s belated celebrating?